Torn.
Friday, November 30, 2007,

2dae i was on the phone with cherylene... n the call went on for almost an hour... before that we were tryg to study 2gether on skype... somehow when we toked on the phone, i felt kindof relieved when she suggested hanging up cuz she can tell that im bored... she was kindof upset that the notion of hanging up seemed so appealing to me... However, i do miss her alot... just tat somehow, my capacity to talk for very long has waned... in fact i always feel very rejuvenated by the shorter calls of around 15 to 30 mins... perhaps doing nothg but toking for months, or exam material to cover, has kindof caused this decrease in capacity... but she was very understandg too. telling me tat she knows tat exam stress and stuff is causing me to be like tat... in fact, there has so many other occassions whereby i receive an email of thanks for being there for her, sharing her emotional baggages, tolerating her emo times or even how wonderful a bf i am to her... ive never ever feel so appreciated in my life... yup, in the past, never...

wrote a song for my frens... do u guys like it? hahaha... or maybe, have ya seen the lyrics already? in any case, weiliang was telling me tat my songs always have these "weiliat" kind of falsetto switches... its becuz my voice always not high enuf to sing my own songs... haha.. while i do not find that a problem, im greatly inspired by wad he say? if i dun have a high voice, or i even lose my falsetto, does that mean i cannot sing well?

the next song i will write will be about how a guy who gets sick of all the high reaching voices in pop songs... he hence writes a song for himself to prove: no falsetto and a moderately high voice... can still sing a good song!!! =)

2:05 AM

Monday, November 26, 2007,

i write this song, to tell myself that one day, perhaps ill be sucessful, rich and with a lovely family... yet i should never forget, or take for granted all the frens hu have walked this long journey with me... becuz one day, when riches turn to rags, when the one i love most might have left me... xiong, hh and all my frens... i hope u guys will be there for me, cuz without u guys, the world would have never been able to look so beautiful... thanks, really... **hhHuuGzz** (HH + X: dun gay can??!!) haha

《白色的美》

VERSE 1
白色,衬托,着色彩,

只要你的世界美丽便感慨,

没有期待,默默关怀。。。

白色,简单,而美丽,

大方得往往,让人忘记它存在,

它为你存在。。。

CHORUS

直到世界渐渐,失去,色彩,

我才发现白色有多美,

是我忽略了你,让时间,让冷淡,

将白色变灰。。。

白色慢慢变灰,变黑,眼泪,

再多也无法冲淡,这世界的黑,

给我一次机会,我不会,再忘记,

白色的美。。。

VERSE 2

繁华,的都市,炫丽,

得让人看不见谁是好谁是坏,

你却一直,默默关怀。。。

如今,你,已离开,

除了自己,我还能够怪谁,

脑海剩下,一片空白。。。

REPEAT CHORUS

10:15 AM

Thursday, November 22, 2007,

jiangyuan's new gf, compaitable rite?
huihuang's new found weight squashg me
jiangyuan's new fling???!!!


brotherly love in its greatest essence, hahaha

10:22 AM

Wednesday, November 21, 2007,

望着雨,想起了你。。。
想起雨如何洒在两颗炽热的心,
却制造着沸腾的情绪,
敲开了我们原本沉默的心。。。

听着你的声音,望着外面的大雨,
心中掀起耐人寻味的感觉,
两地相思,两颗炽热的心,
把沸腾的情绪化成了焚身的思念。。。

被思念灼伤的心,渴望着你的笑,
像小雨般舒缓我的心情,
但我们像是在沙漠上的两片天空,
有点感慨听到彼此的声音,
同样渴望着小雨的舒缓,
心却已热得无法为彼此做些什么。。。

想说出安慰的话,
却像是说多错多。。。
想不如安静地聆听你的心声,
你却问我为何沉默不语。。。
其实知道你要的只是一个拥抱,
但除了等待,我能做什么呢?

我要努力地为你而开心,为你而笑,
因为虽不可给予拥抱,
却希望我的笑声,能够在你的心中,
再次唤起小雨,愿我的笑,
能再次洒在你那炽热的心,
能再次制造着沸腾的心情,
能给你等待我的力量。。。

5more weeks, n we shall dance again once more =)

11:10 AM

Monday, November 19, 2007,

my cousin got married ytd.. super touching scene... my cousins and i YAM SENG til it was like forever and everyone was looking at us n wanting us to stop ahhahaa... damn fun....

aniwae was pondering about this... my cousin, before xchangg ring with her husband, said that she will be "ya submissive wife"... is there some other nterpretatin in that word for christians? but for me, ill never ant a submissive wife... cuz guys are so damn stupid and careless sometimes... they really need to put their ego aside and let their wives put in some precious intervention... works the same for the opposite way... if my wife just submits to me, why not hire a maid? intellectual women are harder to handle in some way, but i wld think its more rewarding than having a maid ahahhaa

beetin flew off... we saw her off... 2dae i played bball 2 times man morning n evening, damn shiong... n the uncles we played with... is tat wad we will become? hahahaa, since HH is already 83KG.. aniwae, heard some funny stuff on fridae...

JX: 我不急着找另一半。。。
JY: 不要紧,因为我是你的全部!!!**rolls eyes** hahaha

HH:送飞机= send aeroplane
HH: for u i can go up knife mountains, down oil wok, two collar bones stab knife!

HH, i love you! less than cherylene of cuz hahaha

12:44 AM

Sunday, November 11, 2007,

randomly thinking of a concept for gary's tune... how shld i conceptualise it?

a small white dot in a world of colours silently makes the other colors more beautiful and is often ignored...

yet a small white dot in a sea of black is the brightest, or even most beautiful thg one sees in that picture...

perhaps some friends, or even loved ones exists around us, silently making us feel better while we take all its effort for granted when things are looking rosy and nice...

n only realise them when we are unhappy and alone, when the whole world seems lonely, dark and dull...

randomness at work again haha

1:37 AM

Monday, November 05, 2007,


my grandma cutting cake... dun u think shes kawaii!!!
this is kahn, aka PIG... eating steamboat wif me at the deck haha
tryg to take a pic 2gether but not look like gays
bdae cake!
my family!!! super big hahaha.. stil got pple never come lo
another picture! like zhen qing man
why my auntie look so sad? hahaha, HUNGRY!??
she looks so beautiful when shes so happy!!! hahaha **muuUaaCkkZZ**
randomly felt like changing my blog's outlook... n just changed lo... cher say its girly... but in HH's terms, SO WAD! I LIKE! hahaha... i rule my world =p
my grandma is 72! walao... n my cousin is gettg married soon n she will see the child of her grandchild! walao... power la... hahaha... think we really can shoot zhenqing liao, including my mum, 7 daughters and 1 son! hahaha go n multiply on average each of her children has 2 children on average n... WOAH!!! hahaha, Singapore government must love my grandma hahahah =p
aniwae recent times she hasnt been smiling so much like 2dae... was studyg health psyche just now... when we are old, self efficacy n pride drops because of immobility, decreasing physical attractiveness and decreasing attention from the children hu r growing up... she even kindof feels that my uncle's wife is like taking over her cuz my auntie does most of the sework n cooking... but she looks damn gorgeous when shes in that last photo when she smiles so brightly... hope she can feel our love... =) without her our family wld have crumbled cuz my grandpa died early because of alcohol n heart attack...
i feel that when we are old, there are so much thgs we cant do... therefore... we shld dress and do thgs that young pple will do! just swam 20 laps... when im old, im not even sure if i can walk properly... i shall stay happy now! because in life there are bigger hurdles to overcome! but after the hurdle theres always somethg gd to look forward to...
rite, cher? =)


7:07 PM

Saturday, November 03, 2007,

updated and changed some of the lyrics!!!! =)

<<不想唱了>>

VERSE 1
轻轻,地唱出淡淡忧伤
才能突显,激动时的悲伤
偶尔可以带有一点哭腔
太多却又怕你说我不浪漫

VERSE2
沙哑,隐约透露着悲伤
咬字不清,又像是优柔寡断
掌声再响亮,那又怎样
你不在,你不在,你不在。。。 我身旁。。。

CHORUS 1
大提琴的哭声,
手风琴的无忧无虑,
空荡的心,(已)掀不起,任何情绪
荧幕上的自己,
虚伪的笑像在笑着自己,
忘记你,忘记你,忘记你,谈何容易。。。

VERSE 3
冷淡的心,歌声试着溶化别人的心
休止符不知不觉地,延续着遗留的心情
情歌再浪漫,唱起来都千篇一律
心中呐喊着什么,还不如沉默不语

REPEAT CHORUS 1

CHORUS 2
大提琴的哭声,
手风琴的无忧无虑,
再美的旋律,对我来说,也没意义
看照片上的你,甜美的笑,我用来安慰自己
忘记你,忘记你,忘记你,谈何容易。。。

我知道你就快要回到我身旁。。。

5:05 PM

Friday, November 02, 2007,

just finished writing a song... and i must thank these few pple and events that have inspired me to write these lyrics...
1. virtuso for saying that i do not vary my singing enuf to create feelings
2. Xinyao concert where i performed a duet with a very pretty gal but felt very lost when i could not see cherylene in the audience
3. having this dream that i became famous
4. Gary for telling me how sick he is of love songs, causing me to wonder why...

just the lyrics here... will post the song after its arranged, which is like forever cuz my senior got FYP... meanwhile... hope u guys like it... =)

<<不想唱了>>

VERSE 1
轻轻,地唱出淡淡忧伤
才能突显,激动时的悲伤
偶尔可以带有一点哭腔
太多却又怕你说我不浪漫

VERSE2
沙哑,隐约透露着悲伤
咬字不清,又像是优柔寡断
掌声再响亮,那又怎样
你不在,你不在,你不在。。。 我身旁。。。

CHORUS
大提琴的哭声,
手风琴的无忧无虑,
空荡的心,(已)掀不起,任何情绪
荧幕上的自己,
虚伪的笑像在笑着自己,
忘记你,忘记你,忘记你,谈何容易。。。

VERSE 3
冷淡的心,歌声试着溶化别人的心
休止符不知不觉地,延续着遗留的心情
情歌再浪漫,唱起来都千篇一律
心中呐喊着什么,还不如沉默不语

REPEAT CHORUS
你不在,你不在,你不在。。。快回来

4:57 PM