Torn.

Friday, September 15, 2006,

feeling damn pissed now la.. woken up 3 times in 2 hrs... slept at 3 last nite... realli juz wanted to take a gd nap mah... hai... now having a splittg headache again...

2dae had a damn fun lecture wan, el1101E, how can such a fun lecture onli require 1 point to bid?? haha... its a surprise package man... some of the stuff they teach inside is kindof the same as cl1101E, but i guess its realli the lecturer man... the chinese lecturer is realli... abit dull lah, haha...

watched e sweety concert wif elaine yestrdae... quite sian cuz had to queue up before the thing start, then kinda pissed elaine off cuz i sulked when i queue, cant help it lah, im not tat dying to watch sweety mah.. but " its not doing wad u love but doing somethg with ya loved one "... so well... i guess i kinda irritatg oso lah... cuz i kinda miss the feeling of suddenly waking up and find elaine in my room wif breakfast... realli very touched tat time... actualli i noe its quite outta her way to do tat but... i juz kinda need reassurances i guess, cuz im realli not confident tat she will be nice and sweet to me soon and things will go back to last time... so its not her fault i guess...

remember the last time i saw a very old couple near my house... and they were already all white haird and cant even walk and balance properly, but they are still holdg hands... damn touched lah... so pple out there, if they can be so sweet even after being together so long, please do not think tat u can slack off even if ya have been 2gethr for a long time... nvr hurts to say " i miss u ", never hurts to juz ged a rose, even if its from e market, never hurts to suddenly suggest ya wanna jog wif him, even though u noe u will end up brisk walking and waitg for him to jog back n find u, never hurts to use a sweet tone when u r pissed, and a interested tone when u r bored... perhaps one might argue " then im not being myself!!! "... sometimes it takes a little effort to love and a little effort to think back n realise he or she did somethg tat u liked and he or she din realli like... wad i say is perhaps rubbish... but well, this is MY BLOG!!! and im entitled to writg RUBBISH!!! wahahaha... as the great huihuang once said to a stranger " not happy dun read the blog lo!!! " haha... i juz love huihuang so much " ( see, ive juz put in a little effort to love ) =p, kiddg lah, i realli love my frens, =p

12:09 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006,

had a great weekend man... fridae was quite shiok oso... onli had a 8am lecture then liberated liao... haha... in e eceng played volleyball for my block and to think we made it to the semis!!! haha... after tat join huihuang, jiangyuan n xiong at src to play bball... but my shootg skills not there liao... got time needa go n resharpen... then we went clementi to eat claypot chicken rice... quite nice man... but xiong's finger like taiwanese sausage now, muz be he bully beetin then self-inflict injury on himself haha... so SORRY BEETIN, xiong weiliat n huihuang hereby declare we will not bully you again, for we fear the consequences of physical impairment =p

on saturdae i was the organiser of swimming for IBG... then my partner she realli quite zhobolan man... meetg never come, then all the captains i liase one, then i told her to help me find stopwatch she oso say cannt find... walao, juz ask arnd lah... DL... grrrr... after tat went back hall to mug, startg to understand my cl1101E slightly more.. haha... but after clearg one lecture, i had lunch then dozed off... ya, CL1101E is e bez medicine to insomnia... then met my mum for steambt wan... i jio her wan lah, cuz havent been spendg much time with her... sigh...

yestrdae i went beach hut work 7-11, then chiong to ronnie's place to give her daughter n her fren tuition from 1230-230... damn hectic man... then junheng keep tellg me 60 cents plus 40 cents equal 10cents... then i took out my wallet n teach him using real coins... ended up i chiong cab to esplanade watch concert wif elaine, then realised i left my wallet at ronnie's place... somehow, elaine wasnt angry tat i was late plus i made her run all e way out to pay the cabfare... thanx gal... e concert by SYO was real nice... then we went gia gia, ate at a jap restaurant then watched "little man"... had a real nice day...

my frens and my mum who are all very worried abt me... dun worry, i noe wad i am doing... as til now, e elaine im seeing is realli kinda different from the past... has been totally faultless these 2 weeks... sweet til i cannt complain... im enjoying myself alot, juz tat im realli not sure whether this nice feeling can last how long... maybe after juz like a month more ill find her too hot-tempered again n she will find me a lousy boyfren 2?? so ill juz take things at my own pace, i can juz say if it carries on like this, elaine could really be a gal guys wld look forward 2... =) well... gonna watch bleach now... byyeee, may readers of this blog enjoy everydae of ya livesss!!!

9:29 AM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006,

joanna's personalised msg =)

puma jzcket from elaine!!

card made by amos... present from BLK D com!!! n a cake 2 =)

surprise card from samantha n florence!!!

linjie's crad and magnet ( n chocolates, finish le cannt feature wahahha)

bu xiao xin upload 2 times haha

cool computer speakers from elaine!!! =p

printer from xiong huihuang beetin n janice!!! wahahaha... sleek

heyguys realli damn long nvr write blog liao lah haha... cuz 2 many excitg things going on in hall... im in the sports comittee, tech crew comitte and im the head of my block's level one... n ive been playing like bball, table tennis, jog, handball n all sorts whenever im free... hehe, n visitg neighbours every nite!!! ( mozly gals, i muz confess wahahaha)... so weill... like last nite, i went supper wif joanna, then came back to jog wif yilynn at 12 plus, then went supper wif her n finally played table tennis til 2 plus, haha... FUN!!!

aniwae above are the bdae gifts i got this yr!!!!! thanx alot to all of you for rememberg... it was damn nice to receive 9 msgs n see 3 miss calls when u wake up... haha... ( sorry ivy again i din pick up )... n all those pressies!!! haha... i met linjie yestrdae in science fac she gave me the card n chocolates n magnets... e choc is damn nice!!! ( cuz damn ex haha )... then im happily printg notes in my room now!!! =) wearing my puma jacket in lectures.. hehe... listeng to music wif proper speakers!!! hehe, thanx alot guys... n my god suddenly wake up then found envelope at doorstep... e card from sam n florence was realli damn sweet man!!! love u gals... n e personalised msg from jo, cheap but priceless =)

on my bdae eve went out for a movie wif elaine then came back hall... quite touched tat evening... cuz elaine secretly bought a cakes from coffee club express n hid them in my hall fridge when i was away for lectures... when i came back from my shower, she made me wait outside, then i came in n tata.. candles n a bdae song... =) then nxt dae was my block theme nite... i acted for some skit tat i directed n wrote e script haha... after tat my block com gave me a cake n the card... after tat went out wif huihuang n co. to celebrate bdae on sat... haha... buay tahan they late me one hr... then i eat one mchicken for one hr... damn paiseh... after tat we went parkway to tis place sellg wine... i bought a bottle of hse white then we brought food in from everywhere!!! white wine went wif bar chor mee, sashimi, honey glazed chiz frm cold storage, burger king cheese sticks, fried oyster ( or jian )... wahahaha, damn shiok, then go biao ge wif them at kbox!!!! my happiest bdae sooo far!!! =) thanx everyone!!!

hmm then i went superstar audition... pls read n stop asking on msn haha... tis is wad happened... i queued frm 8plus til eveng 6plus, then was told im for e 10am slot 2ml n i have to queue again!!! finally i went for auditions!!! those before me kena buzzer damn fast... then came my turn... i sang a song... then they asked me if i had professional training bfore... i said im frm choir for 6 yrs... then he told me to sing another song... then he asked me have i thought of being a singer... i juz replied sorta think of but parents in s'pore are more discouragg... then they sighed n pressed e buzzer... so pple sing well n be enthu when u go auditions =)

as for me n elaine.. we r at quite a complex stage... we are holding hands n stuff but not realli together... its kinda my fault cuz im not ready to commit myself... somethg happened tat reminded me of e huge differences we have between us... so i juz wanna keep tis relatnship stress free n try to go slow... perhaps this is wad many cant understand but i believe those hu noe me well enugh noe i deal wif relationships in my own way n i noe wad im doing... so dun worry k guys =) tats all folks!!! needa go lecture now!!!!!!!

1:17 PM