2dae i went to e budget airline terminal to pick her up... shes working as cashier at hans there... she slept on my lap on e way hm... i held her hand 2... sorta realli feel like old times... later i made my aussie photo album at her place n we watched da chang jin 2gether til her dad came back wif our dinner... kinda enjoyed my dae until my mum called... told her im at her place... she asked if we are 2gethr again... i said i dunno... she juz said dun go back 2 her juz becuz im lonely n said i muz be cautious... i told elaine wad my mum said... n asked her whether she is sorta wif me onli cuz shes lonely nw... i asked her if my mum's rite... she said shes nt sure 2... nowadays i realli feel so insecure... sometimes i juz hope she will say some nice thgs to reassure me tat she misses me or somethg... my frens have all sorta opinion... " if still got spark go for it lo.. " " shes juz using u n coming back 2 u cuz shes lonely" " follow ya heart if ya still like her 2 " " if theres a new guy she might juz leave u again " sometimes im realli abit sian... i realli enjoy her company alot... n shes so happy when shes wif me... is tat enugh?? some say i shld juz wait for uni start then can ged a new n better gf... or maybe she will ged a new bf 2 when schl reopens?? lots of thgs in my head nw... i juz hope im doing e rite thg now... ive alwaz wanted her to be happy... juz like even linjie n ivy... its like ill go all e way juz to cheer em up... now it seems like im e onli one hu can realli make her happy nw... i guess ill juz enjoy her company for now... if its gonna bring abt anothr heartbreak, fuck it lah... so be it... well, gtg have a gd dae anione hu reads my blog :)