yeah!!! u got it... im finally set loose upon tis world once more!!! haha... 21 daes wifout e civilian world... when i stepped outta camp... even the bus exhaust smells like perfume... n the soggy wantan mee near my place tasted like crystal jade ramen... haha... 2dae went sakae buffet wif weijian n huihuang... n got thrashed by huihuang at pool... walao eh... play 9 sets onli won 2 man... grr...

aniwae these 21 daes made me realli think alot... n became suck kok buddies wif weiqing hu served 21 daes sol wif me of cuz haha.. non stop winning eleven man... i looovvveeeee liverpool man!!! aniwae i oso missed lots of pple... i literally kissed my phone when my mum called... haha... n i wrote a song, after being inspired by " memoirs of a geisha "... tis is juz the chorus, someone help me out wif the tune k??

every step ive taken is to bring myself farther away from you
so that happiness can draw near you once more
every step loneliness make me stumble and fall
yet ya smile in a world without me... gives me strength to carry on...

every nite i fall asleep n dream of all tat u have once said
i awake to flashbacks of all the mistakes ive made
when i cant fall asleep, i imagine u in his arms...
ya smile in a world without me.. made me so happy...
tat i can... finally fall asleep...

2dae a new batch of men juz came outta their course... seeing them run around... doing silly things... and the batch of sergeants after me are now calling the shots... knocking e men down, tellg them this and that... everythg juz seems like yesterdae... n suddenly i like feel quite old leh haha... well... a month more and i will be away... going to nus... BIDDING... omg why do they even have such a system... grrr... hope i can take psychology and put it to gd use in future... i think it will be a super hard subject... wads more complicated than humans ya?? haha ( especially gals... haha kiddg ) i think guys are quite hard to please rite?? the moment they feel ya r 2 naggy n possessive.... then they feel a sense of insecurity when u dun bother... hope i can understand all tis nonsense better soon!!! :)

2dae really had the bez time i ever had in tis army camp... juz soooo happy... morning was doing duty... ( haha... nowadays theres so little duty i dunno wad to do in my spare time man haha ) was reading tis book call 5 pple ya meet in heaven... its super nice... i finished it in one dae... the guy was in heaven n he was there to understand why he lived n how he changed the lives of some pple eternally... n understands every thing lost is replaced by somethg new... was really quite sad after my breakup... but maybe tats why shes so happy now?? haha... i suddenly feel quite happy at tat thot 2 :)

then i played soccer 2dae... din really perform haha... then there was tis fren of mine he came out super late for the soccer... his reason was to watch some football videos.. claimg he wld have more inspiratn... ended up still playerd like shit haha..it juz feels gd to sweat!!! can tell myzself i look better haha... i really think its juz imaging haha

aniwae... after tat we started to feel hungry... we wanted to cook some instant noodles... then after much thinkg, we decided to set up a fire to cook it!!! damn fun... we gatherd lots of branches n broke em into smaller pieces, then added charcoal n used 2 bricks we found to start the fire... 2 our amazemt it boiled soon n we were cooking!! we cooked fried rice, scrambled eggs n curry maggie mee... super nice... then we took out a guitar n i sang to the many tunes my fren playd... feels like gd old bmt daes... n memories of me n her flooded back... cooking instant noodles 2 by the beach n toking in our blue tent... strollg along the star struck sky.. haha... 2dae is really a happy dae!!!! yehhhh!!!! now im gonna sleep... n i hope i can be the person hu can make so many pple's lives happier!! nitezzz!!! :) miss e world outside

juz went to open the door for one of my fellow colleauges... he took some time off out to go for some drinks... so was abit drunk... he suddenly sat down beside me n asked me abt wad happened tis afternn... he said he was very sad tat i never share it wif him cuz he wants to share my burden... his eyes, his drunken voice... i know nothg but the truth was coming out of him... so theres someone hu realli wants to share my problems... a true brother perhaps...

hes a very gd singer, we both love singg... n we r both pple hu have strong principles which do not cripple under authority... maybe tats why theres a bond between us?? he told me no one toks to him at hm... he can onli use alchohol to pass time.. i guess i shld really cherish tis fren... ill be there for him when he needs me... juz like ivy jaz linjie n elaine... i promised these 4 ill take care ofem forever... n ill keep my promise as a fren, a bf or a hushband... as for jackson, i make tis promie.. n let tis entry on tis blog be proof of tis promise..

juz now was singg for like 1 hr non stop wif my fren hu played the guitar... felt damn happy n relaxed liao... plus found jackson to be truly a real fren... i guess gd things are finally startg to happen ;) maybe after every downpour, theres realli a rainbow?? :)

2dae really had a bad start to my morning... all of us of the same rank were summoned by high authority into a room and given a tongue lashg... n my so called " offence " was cited as the example of our poor level of discipline... when i tried 2 defend myself, i was snubbed by his rank as he threatend to throw me into jail... quite sad tat no one said anythg for me... i cld onli keep quiet...

first time i cried for the squadron... was realli upset ( but cried more for the sake of feelg better haha... like drunk muz puke mah endure for wad )... was juz feelg like i tried so hard everytime to fight for better things for my men n even for my peers, my firmness has been 2 hard for many big egos... my men comforted me n said they knew wad i had done for them... tat realli cheered me up... :) sometimes we realli dun mind doing anythg for pple we care abt... we juz want some assurance we r appreciated ya?? haha... seeing pple laugh n stuff juz feels great!!!

then played lotsa winning eleven for the rest of the eveng... haha... managed to use newcastle to beat BRAZIL 5-1... haha, joke of tis bookin man... 2ml my fren are going nus n ntu open house.. so sad i cant go... but well... im gonna ord soon!!!! :)

hm... juz went ona date wif my mum haha.. quite fun actually, its been a long time since i dated her haha... why do i say its a date?? cuz she keeps holdg my hand haha, then ill tease her n call her darling... abit paiseh... though my mum's very pretty for her age, still 2 old for me haha..

remember when i was young i alwaz go out shopping wif my mum.. then we will eat lotsa stuff, ( tats why last time i pverweight mah )... then ill go look at clothes wif her n even go into the bra sectn wif her n stuff like tat... 2dae realli lots of memories flood back... we had steak at a restaurant call "shashlk" or somethg like tat... after tat we walked arnd... i almoz offered to buy her flowers haha...

toking abt the restaurant.. its located at 6th flr of far east shoppg center... super uuluu... but its juz so nice... the steak n lamb we ordered were so tender n juicy... the whole restaurant looks quite old... evn the flower vases or decoratns looks like they are antiques, then the waiter n waitresses are like minimum 40 plus, oldest being 70... then the steak n lamb comes in a super long skewer which the ah pek pushes out in a tray.. he then use a fork n push it into a hotplate then serve it wif russian salad.. but the waitress is quite hard to address, call auntie like not nice, call miss like cheatg her leh haha

aniwae juz feel so glad i have such a nice mum, shes alwaz there for me... ive seen pple scold their mum, taking then for granted n stuff like tat.. perhaps we shld cherish them more... cuz when i wanted to, my father alreadi left... 1 more dae to confinemt!!!! haha

wow... i juz slept 14hrs... was real tired man... 2 more daes of freedom n countg down... but i guess its not such a bad thing after all... recently my life's in a mess, maybe s weeks of solitary is a gd chance to reflect on myself... i alwaz think tat when somethg bad happens, its never juz one person's fault... no matter wad i muz have contributed to the problem im faced wif now.. so i will find out wad went wrong then i can move on!!! :)

ater will be going bbq wif my army guys!!! shld be fun, cant wait to cycle... last bkout i went cycling wif my cousin at 1130 in the nite.. thot cycle a while only haha... ended up we cycled frm aljunied to airport road then all the way to serangoon chomp chomp there... haha walao.... all the upslopes almoz killed me... but i love the feelg... maybe becuz it feels like ast time when my dad was still arnd a alwaz go schl on his motorbike haha

realised i alwaz write on my blog whenever i feel like writing somethg like the events are not in order wan haha... but i guess no one reads it aniwae ya?? haha..

walao... realli confirm 2ml onwards they will confine me in camp for 28 daes... im gonna have a showdown wif pple of ranks much higher than me 2ml... not scold em la.. juz wanna make them understand its wrong to treat nsf pple like dirt... almoz even went to jail man... then when the regulars make a mistake, they r covered up... sad eh??

went to a seminar at my previous workplace yestrdae... happy memories floodg back man... haha... like me havent even startg to close any sales then comfort a senior will have result soon, haha... end up kena scoldd, stuff like tat... then there is tis story tat struck me... a father promises his son a big present when he geds his degree, n tis son hates to study but is fillial... this boy got a first class honours n came back to tell his dad... upon seeing tis his dad gave him a bible... he loved cars n many other things 2... n felt his father cheated his feelings by givg such a present... he left n lived on his own in anguish, thinkg so many yrs of hard work to fulfill his dad's wish had amounted to a lie... after 20yrs, he craved out a career himself n oso forgived his father... but he went home n found out his father had passed away... he cried.... n started flippg the bible... he founf a hole cut in the pages of the bible, n in it was a key... on the page wrote " garage my gd son :) " he rushed to the garage, n found the car he dreamt of 20 yrs ago... he regretted not believg his father... so i guess some things onli if we believe, we will be able to achieve ya?? haha

all my frens out there... call me whenevr possible ya?? ill be trapped in camp :) hmm... n thanks for all the support u guys show these few rough months of mine... :) a better dae awaits!!!! haha